This time last year I was flying home to say goodbye to my Mom forever. I didn’t realize that she would pass just a few hours after I arrived. I thought I would have more time with her. Not that it was quality time at that point anyway…she was unconscious and being fed sublingual medicines to keep her out of pain. It was really hard to see my strong, beautiful Mother like that. She wasn’t there anymore. It was just her shell. So in many ways, it was a blessing when she passed but I guess… I guess I thought I would have more time to touch her and smell her and know that she was still in this dimension with me.
Read MoreInterview with Voyage LA /
Choosing to be a professional Artist is not a smooth road. Every step is through quicksand. But it’s a quicksand that sparkles with ground up diamonds with a view of glittering galaxies and shooting stars like you’ve never seen and at the end is a unicorn just for you.
Read MoreOnly Walk In Wonderful Directions /
I wake up every day and battle my demons because that is what we do as humans. We love, we lose, we have joy, we have pain. We are so aware that awareness itself becomes a battle. The thing about myself that I am certain of though …. I only walk in wonderful directions. And even among all the heartache that I am enduring at the moment, I know I will find that joyful path again.
Read MoreNov 2, 2019: Hyphae at Krblin Jihn Kabin /
Hyphae will be at Krblin Jihn Kabin in Joshua Tree, CA on Saturday, Nov. 2, 2019 from Dusk until Sunrise.
Religious leader Krblin Jihn lived in this cabin under house arrest after a rival sect defeated his Jihn Wranglikans in a long war. For one night only, Hyphae will pay Krblin Jihn a visit.
Read MoreBreathe /
I've been eating scraps and bits because I don't want to go to the store. I backed out of 7 appointments with friends over the last week. I can’t remember the last time I had a proper shower. Letting dishes pile and trash go longer than normal, I’m in a creative trance and I can't be bothered with any universe outside of mine.
Read MoreMy Dutch Grandfather and More /
I’ve been teaching myself the guitar enough to play along to what I’m composing and come up with melodies. It’s much easier to find them on the guitar vs. the piano. Would love to get some proper lessons someday. Anyway, here’s some new compositions .. I hope you enjoy them.
<3,
Annie
The Playa /
With my sights set on extending my fiber optic sculpture Hyphae, for my 4 weeks on The Playa I only brought materials to explore very specific things.
Read MoreWTFLA? /
I’ve been finding myself keeping an eye on weather a lot more than normal lately. Los Angeles, like the rest of the world, has been experiencing a lot of weird shit.
Read MoreOn Forgiveness /
As I reflect over the last year, I think about forgiveness. I have long struggled to forgive myself for damage caused to my loved ones as I’ve pursued contentment. My Mother was a major casualty in that journey so as you can imagine, her death has forced me to confront a lot of things I don’t like about myself. Of course, all was forgiven by her but I will forever struggle to forgive myself. Additionally, I’ve been trying desperately to let go of pain others have knowingly and unknowingly inflicted upon me. I realize that I cannot reach self-actualization without forgiveness.
Can't Fight The Cosmos /
This past weekend Tom and I decided to take our chances with the Blood Wolf Moon and drive out to Alabama Hills, California to install our 3rd off-grid light sculpture.
Read MoreInspiration in the Back of a VW Van /
Two Spanish women and me in a VW bus rushing checkpoint to checkpoint on a 170km trail race across France, Italy and Switzerland. Our jobs were essentially to make sure our friend, Biel, didn’t die.
Read MoreThe Death of my Mother /
I got home at 11:30PM on Sunday, December 16. Mom died 5 hours later.
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